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i am bubbling. i feel nausea. It was Bawaa’s birthday yesterday and I was video calling to see how their visit to the zoo went. in the corner of the screen, I saw Waanda, when her name was mentioned, and that callous teenage look of not caring struck me to the core. I know…
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there’s an urgency that i don’t understand. And it’s only during work hours. I had a client text me over the weekend to change an appointment time, i looked at it and went hey it’s the weekend, i will respond to that on Monday. Now it’s Monday 8.38am and i’m feeling that sense of…
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i get hijacked into having the process be perfect. So right now i’m typing away in wordpress, just using it as a practice to get through the heavy moments (it is Day one afterwall). But my mind then goes, oh no but what if the internet goes down, what if i don’t have a…
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i drank heavily yesterday to ease my frightened mind of the promise i made to cut off from alcohol for 30 days. A bit blah on the tongue, a fog of uncertainty follows me from rising. I thought having a strict routine to follow (i have planned out my days to the hour, well…
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grade 7 johnton germs lifting the feet off the ground when i walked into a classroom i wonder if she ever felt bad
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i am listening to barb cook presenting on RSD, even as I listen, I am overcome with emotions that are questioning whether i am right or wrong in thinking I am challenged by RSD. Just listen to the fucking woman Jb, for fucks sake