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i am bubbling. i feel nausea. It was Bawaa’s birthday yesterday and I was video calling to see how their visit to the zoo went. in the corner of the screen, I saw Waanda, when her name was mentioned, and that callous teenage look of not caring struck me to the core. I know…
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there’s an urgency that i don’t understand. And it’s only during work hours. I had a client text me over the weekend to change an appointment time, i looked at it and went hey it’s the weekend, i will respond to that on Monday. Now it’s Monday 8.38am and i’m feeling that sense of…
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i get hijacked into having the process be perfect. So right now i’m typing away in wordpress, just using it as a practice to get through the heavy moments (it is Day one afterwall). But my mind then goes, oh no but what if the internet goes down, what if i don’t have a…
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i drank heavily yesterday to ease my frightened mind of the promise i made to cut off from alcohol for 30 days. A bit blah on the tongue, a fog of uncertainty follows me from rising. I thought having a strict routine to follow (i have planned out my days to the hour, well…
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that time that either mum or dad wrote i hate dad on the board, when i was the only one old enough to write
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Homeless So I walk past many homeless (well beggards, assumption is that they’re homeless) and for months some faces are the same. one lady in particular (who’s husband or prtnber) sits just up from here has been there for at leat 2 months. the length of time to learn a new skill. now i’m…
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grade 7 johnton germs lifting the feet off the ground when i walked into a classroom i wonder if she ever felt bad
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i am listening to barb cook presenting on RSD, even as I listen, I am overcome with emotions that are questioning whether i am right or wrong in thinking I am challenged by RSD. Just listen to the fucking woman Jb, for fucks sake